Day 5
You are not a hero for going through this without pain management (I would call it being an idiot)
In my book being a hero is owning it and going through this experience with everything they offer.
I had a lovely visitor Di and I caught up with industry stuff and our stuff.
I have so missed your knowledge and wisdom, thank you for your time today.
I hear that it's going to be a very questionable day tomorrow, even the nurses have said don't go home tomorrow it's going to be to nasty, and if it looks like they are going to send you home just sit on your bed and cry
If your upset about it they won't send you home lol
I love how human these nurses are, they crack me up lol
Not much other news today just sleeping a lot and resting, this is all new to me and I think I'm beginning to enjoy it
Sunday, 23 April 2017
Day 4 19/11/16
Another day done
Day 4
I'm really missing my man, my puppy and my bed.
It's nice having visitors and being looked after the way I am but I must admit being home would be nice.
Now in saying that here (in my blog) I have not said that to any doctors or nurses, I've done as I'm told showered when they've said etc and each day when the doctors come in they say "not today for going home"
To be honest I'm not ready to go home yet, Lola will love me way too much and I may be hurt.
I'm fine to stay until
Wednesday if they can have me that long, that way I should find out what they have tested and found out and also they have a big meeting on a Tuesday with a huge team from every department and they give their opinion and which department can help me with my next lot of treatments.
Glenys and Carolyn popped in for chats, which was lovely. After a short breather my mother and sister turned up, made cuppas, and talked about 4 legged babies. Then Zac and elly turned up with little grand babies in arms.
Cuddle time with one of them. They are just so cute, happy and content, I'm so proud of Zac and Elly. Latecha hadn't had double cuddles photo so we made sure that it happened.
Babies were swapped and I was asked to feed him, mum and latecha left and we finished feeding babies. Once done they went on there way and I laid down for a rest, 2 hours later I woke to the world again.
Food is better when I get to choose.
Emotionally I'm still very numb, how does one act with breast cancer? How am I meant to feel? How am
I meant to act?
Oh well I will be me, if you don't like it ummmm stiff
I've been asking all day got my drainage bags to be changed I've gone from 20-50 ml each bag per day to drain away excess fluid now to over 100mls
Each bag is now over 300mls each bag
I have them both in a bag that I carry over my shoulder and it's getting very heavy, they want me to walk around yet with the weight in my bag is starting to rub where I don't want it rubbing.
So after a short time in I'm looking forward to midnight to get rid of my excess weight and get nice new bags.
That's all for today I will let you know how tomorrow is tomorrow
Love to all and thank you for reading and being part of this adventure xxx
Day 4
I'm really missing my man, my puppy and my bed.
It's nice having visitors and being looked after the way I am but I must admit being home would be nice.
Now in saying that here (in my blog) I have not said that to any doctors or nurses, I've done as I'm told showered when they've said etc and each day when the doctors come in they say "not today for going home"
To be honest I'm not ready to go home yet, Lola will love me way too much and I may be hurt.
I'm fine to stay until
Wednesday if they can have me that long, that way I should find out what they have tested and found out and also they have a big meeting on a Tuesday with a huge team from every department and they give their opinion and which department can help me with my next lot of treatments.
Glenys and Carolyn popped in for chats, which was lovely. After a short breather my mother and sister turned up, made cuppas, and talked about 4 legged babies. Then Zac and elly turned up with little grand babies in arms.
Cuddle time with one of them. They are just so cute, happy and content, I'm so proud of Zac and Elly. Latecha hadn't had double cuddles photo so we made sure that it happened.
Babies were swapped and I was asked to feed him, mum and latecha left and we finished feeding babies. Once done they went on there way and I laid down for a rest, 2 hours later I woke to the world again.
Food is better when I get to choose.
Emotionally I'm still very numb, how does one act with breast cancer? How am I meant to feel? How am
I meant to act?
Oh well I will be me, if you don't like it ummmm stiff
I've been asking all day got my drainage bags to be changed I've gone from 20-50 ml each bag per day to drain away excess fluid now to over 100mls
Each bag is now over 300mls each bag
I have them both in a bag that I carry over my shoulder and it's getting very heavy, they want me to walk around yet with the weight in my bag is starting to rub where I don't want it rubbing.
So after a short time in I'm looking forward to midnight to get rid of my excess weight and get nice new bags.
That's all for today I will let you know how tomorrow is tomorrow
Love to all and thank you for reading and being part of this adventure xxx
Day 3 19/11/16
Day 3
Omg what bus ran over me? I hope you got there number plate?
I think it will be easier to tell you what doesn't hurt, which would be both of my big toes!!!!
I have been encouraged to get out of bed by myself, but by doing so I'm bracing muscles to prevent hurting other areas. Breathing hurts, moving hurts, laughing hurts.
The nurses are just lovely, I couldn't ask for better people to help me through this nasty situation.
Leo popped in to say hi, I'm glad she works in the hospital area, I had just having a shower, gotten my knickers on and came out to get help to dry my back and finish getting dresses and I hear knock knock and around the curtains popped Leo. Leo yo the rescue she helped me dry my back and finish dressing, then effect went and bought a real coffee and some muffins. Noice yummy food. Lovely chat, lovely company, I must admit I'm going to miss you when your away.
Lunch arrives, mmmmmm not enjoying the sight or smell.
I received some beautiful flowers from my mans work, very thoughtful.
Afternoon nap time arrived, today I'm very tired and seem to be dozing off to sleep very easily. So I welcome the zzzzz. My man popped in he went and found us a yummy coffee, and Susie it's funny how a samosa jumped out is the shop and straight into his mouth.
After a little nap dinner arrived, which is much nicer to be able to choose my own food.
I'm still very dependent on the tablets and the pain comes in waves at times I feel like my muscles are bulging over the expanders but apparently this is normal. (Not my kinda normal, but getting used to it)
At about 9.30 I sent the man home and had 1 more lot of medications at 12ish than night night for the rest of the night.
Back to sleep until 4am finish today's blog, more tablets and off to the land off nodding
Love to all, and if you feel like sitting in a room with me, your welcome to come and join me. I can make you a shit coffee if you like.
Love to all xxx
Omg what bus ran over me? I hope you got there number plate?
I think it will be easier to tell you what doesn't hurt, which would be both of my big toes!!!!
I have been encouraged to get out of bed by myself, but by doing so I'm bracing muscles to prevent hurting other areas. Breathing hurts, moving hurts, laughing hurts.
The nurses are just lovely, I couldn't ask for better people to help me through this nasty situation.
Leo popped in to say hi, I'm glad she works in the hospital area, I had just having a shower, gotten my knickers on and came out to get help to dry my back and finish getting dresses and I hear knock knock and around the curtains popped Leo. Leo yo the rescue she helped me dry my back and finish dressing, then effect went and bought a real coffee and some muffins. Noice yummy food. Lovely chat, lovely company, I must admit I'm going to miss you when your away.
Lunch arrives, mmmmmm not enjoying the sight or smell.
I received some beautiful flowers from my mans work, very thoughtful.
Afternoon nap time arrived, today I'm very tired and seem to be dozing off to sleep very easily. So I welcome the zzzzz. My man popped in he went and found us a yummy coffee, and Susie it's funny how a samosa jumped out is the shop and straight into his mouth.
After a little nap dinner arrived, which is much nicer to be able to choose my own food.
I'm still very dependent on the tablets and the pain comes in waves at times I feel like my muscles are bulging over the expanders but apparently this is normal. (Not my kinda normal, but getting used to it)
At about 9.30 I sent the man home and had 1 more lot of medications at 12ish than night night for the rest of the night.
Back to sleep until 4am finish today's blog, more tablets and off to the land off nodding
Love to all, and if you feel like sitting in a room with me, your welcome to come and join me. I can make you a shit coffee if you like.
Love to all xxx
Day 2
18/11:17
Day 2 done and dusted
Second day
Gourmet breakfast of cornflakes toast and coffee
I slept ok probably 1 hour on 1 hour sleep, mixing up the tablets a bit to try and find the happy and not to high road.
My body is starting to ache in places I didn't think possible.
I've decided that with the operation that I've had done I think they need to show pictures of what to expect. This is so not what I expected, it's ugly hard and flat no shape to it at all.
I had the breast care nurse came with advice and gifts. She's getting me a new bra and gave me a pretty little bag for the drains and a boobie pillow.
Susie and Tay came to say hi.
My vein collapsed and antibiotics started going into my tissue, so a nurse came to put a new line in, but no not going to happen. She then called another person to come and do it. Well took her 45 mins and 2 attempts to get a line, then she has put 3 plasters and a crepe bandage on it and has told anyone that will listen to be very careful.
My beautiful man came to visit and stay for a bit.
Food could be better let's see how it goes over the next few days.
That's it for today, more tomorrow xxx
Day 2 done and dusted
Second day
Gourmet breakfast of cornflakes toast and coffee
I slept ok probably 1 hour on 1 hour sleep, mixing up the tablets a bit to try and find the happy and not to high road.
My body is starting to ache in places I didn't think possible.
I've decided that with the operation that I've had done I think they need to show pictures of what to expect. This is so not what I expected, it's ugly hard and flat no shape to it at all.
I had the breast care nurse came with advice and gifts. She's getting me a new bra and gave me a pretty little bag for the drains and a boobie pillow.
Susie and Tay came to say hi.
My vein collapsed and antibiotics started going into my tissue, so a nurse came to put a new line in, but no not going to happen. She then called another person to come and do it. Well took her 45 mins and 2 attempts to get a line, then she has put 3 plasters and a crepe bandage on it and has told anyone that will listen to be very careful.
My beautiful man came to visit and stay for a bit.
Food could be better let's see how it goes over the next few days.
That's it for today, more tomorrow xxx
Hospital day 1 17/11/16
Day one of my hospital stay.
Well I'm here and it's all done.
I arrived and carparks were full with a traffic line to punt road. Finally found a spot, found dad,, Ron Cadle and go to admission, give them all my details sit down and wait. My man decided to go to the loo and as soon as he was out of sight I was called in.
So dad and I went in and left him lol.
Paperwork time, man the paper work goes forever, but has to be done.
The man turns up, I get changed and we go out to waiting area.
My turn for the loo now, and whilst sitting there I get called in to start meeting the surgical tram. The mans right you know, want something to happen go to the loo.
Ok first person, taken to an interview room and it was nearly like a revolving door, one after another after another. Plastic surgeon was 2nd last one to see and he walks in with a sharpie. Once all the markings are done I said he should leave a message for the breast surgeon, his reply was very good, he said that the administration wasn't to please with them doing that, which he couldn't understand why as it got lots of likes on facebook! Next was the breast surgeon. Final chat and back to waiting room.
Chat some more with the man and dad and now the call in, say my good byes and walk to the theatre as we got to the door it looked like someone was already on the table, lol but no it as the way the blanket was bunched.
Trouble again with my veins so gassed to sleep so they can dig to find a vein.
Nite nite and goodbye to nasty left boobie with cancer.
I wake in recovery and they have me on the good stuff, no pain. I see a clock and its later then expected, I know everyone will be worried, they ring Rodolfo let him know I'm ok.
But then my pulse goes high for no reason, that happens twice I don't understand why but it does.
Once I'm stable, and I'm the last person in recovery they take me to the ward.
I have a room on my own, I'm so great full you have no idea. They fix a few things and bring in the family, my man comes in and daddyo is still here and Veronica pops her head around. ( I asked her to make sure her dad eats) Dad goes and Veronica understand where I get my humour/sarcasm/quick wit from lol onya dad.
Nurses have been great, very thoughtful even helped me out with a tangle of my Iv and my upsie downsie control. Only God knows how I managed this.
Well that's enough from me today I need rest and I need more to write about next time
Night time 15/11/16
Night time 15/11/16
Well the night before surgery, as strange as it is I'm feeling calm. Hey did you know that at this state in my journey cancer doesn't hurt physically, mentally that's a different story.
Ok so plans for tomorrow
Up at 6.30 to have coffee and breakfast
Must must must drink plenty of water till 10am so I can plump up those little veins, I don't like the jabbing into a vein less arm
I probably post again tomorrow before hand
But if not update soon
Well the night before surgery, as strange as it is I'm feeling calm. Hey did you know that at this state in my journey cancer doesn't hurt physically, mentally that's a different story.
Ok so plans for tomorrow
Up at 6.30 to have coffee and breakfast
Must must must drink plenty of water till 10am so I can plump up those little veins, I don't like the jabbing into a vein less arm
I probably post again tomorrow before hand
But if not update soon
14/11/16
14/11/16
I had a dear friend send me a pm last night asking how I was and that there has been no las test post regarding my breast cancer treatment.
My reply I have decided to share, it is not for sympathy, but for me to understand my own feelings and emotions that are happening at the moment.
I have a few hard days of reality and can not find the words to post.
Trying to get everything organised for birthdays and Christmas before my world becomes hospitals and medical waiting rooms pain killers and tears.
My op is on Wednesday, the boob comes off
Tissue expander in
Along with a 4-10 day stay in hospital
Still not 100% on radiation yet
I am hoping to find out within 2 weeks from surgery
If no radiation then February or march will be reconstruction if radiation then July will be reconstruction
I'm not as strong as I first thought, it's getting scary and close
I know I will be fine I'm just really scared of the pain and I can do nothing about it
It's something I have to go through but don't want to.
I had a dear friend send me a pm last night asking how I was and that there has been no las test post regarding my breast cancer treatment.
My reply I have decided to share, it is not for sympathy, but for me to understand my own feelings and emotions that are happening at the moment.
I have a few hard days of reality and can not find the words to post.
Trying to get everything organised for birthdays and Christmas before my world becomes hospitals and medical waiting rooms pain killers and tears.
My op is on Wednesday, the boob comes off
Tissue expander in
Along with a 4-10 day stay in hospital
Still not 100% on radiation yet
I am hoping to find out within 2 weeks from surgery
If no radiation then February or march will be reconstruction if radiation then July will be reconstruction
I'm not as strong as I first thought, it's getting scary and close
I know I will be fine I'm just really scared of the pain and I can do nothing about it
It's something I have to go through but don't want to.
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