14/11/16

14/11/16
I had a dear friend send me a pm last night asking how I was and that there has been no las test post regarding my breast cancer treatment.
My reply I have decided to share, it is not for sympathy, but for me to understand my own feelings and emotions that are happening at the moment.

I have a few hard days of reality and can not find the words to post.
Trying to get everything organised for birthdays and Christmas before my world becomes hospitals and medical waiting rooms pain killers and tears.
My op is on Wednesday, the boob comes off
Tissue expander in
Along with a 4-10 day stay in hospital
Still not 100% on radiation yet
I am hoping to find out within 2 weeks from surgery
If no radiation then February or march will be reconstruction if radiation then July will be reconstruction
I'm not as strong as I first thought, it's getting scary and close
I know I will be fine I'm just really scared of the pain and I can do nothing about it
It's something I have to go through but don't want to.